Sometimes I do really feel like it’s all a juggling act. My primary duty (in the natural) right now is to take care of Chris. That is what a day entails. And although he requires 24/7 care it doesn’t mean I have to be stretching or working him every minute. I realize that but there are days that I feel I fall too far short of what he really needs. But then of course that is complicated by my lack of knowing all he really needs!
I do a lot of different things with him every day. The things that are normally part of the day are actually stimuli themselves. Everything is work for him: sitting, standing, transferring, and even eating. Then aside from that he needs more work to regain mobility. My trouble is knowing all that he needs without doing too much. But I really fear I do too little…some because I just really don’t know what he needs.
But then aside from all that I have to do writing on line and all the other things I need to do. The penny to click sites are pretty easy to work in here and there and it keeps a trickle of income moving! Then there’s all the writing. I guess I am at least decent at it as I keep getting asked to do more! That’s great! It brings in a good side income as well!
But then what I really want to do is work on projects for ministry. I have two new study guides I want to begin – they are rolling around inside of me! Then there’s all the work of trying to get the projects that are completed into ebook form and other forms that make them movable products. (By that I mean giving them away and getting them into the hands of others!) There are several projects I have going and I feel bad that I do not complete them in a more timely fashion.
So that’s what I mean by it’s a big juggling act. No matter what gets the most attention I feel the other areas suffer…. what to do?
My mom says, You are only one person- you can only do so much! I have to agree with these words of wisdom. So I must take myself back and remember that I can only do as much as I can do in a day!
I Peter 5:7 is a good reminder here. The NASB states: Casting all your anxiety on Him for He cares for you! I think I can do that! Psalm 55:22 NASB says: cast your burden (margine: what He has given you) upon the Lord and He will sustain you. Then Psalm 139:23 asks God to : Search me O God and know my heart; try me and know my anxious thoughts…
And there ya go! I am back to rest once again…Giving Him everything really releases the burden of the day. I will do my best to get as much done as I can. I believe there is a reward for diligence! Proverbs says there is profit in all labor! So I will work all I can and care for my son to the best of my ability…and let Him take care of the rest!