Today has been a rough day for me. Not really sure why that is. It really may be the weather and not getting out to run. I will blame it on that anyway! Chris has done some pretty good things today though. As long as he keeps progressing I won’t complain! He has no tone and that makes it difficult to move him around. So we spent awhile this afternoon working on sitting and standing.
Some times it just seems like everything is a struggle and there’s no light of day. I know there is light – but I’m just saying how it feels some time.
I am hoping that by sharing my own struggle and fight of faith others will be encouraged. When I am transparent sometimes I feel like others are worried about me being depressed and all. Well, I am all right! Yes,I will be the first to admit that I do struggle with depression – and the Word pulls me out of it as I yield myself to Him! Sharing the struggle isn’t about that part at all – it’s I want to say that yes – we may struggle. Yes – trials and tribulations may come at us from every side… but He will see us through! There’s still faith in the storm. And actually if there wasn’t ever a storm we would not know how strong He is – or how big He is in us!
I have purposefully had to spend time in the word. And not just studying for a lesson or even my private prayer and reading I have done every morning for 30 years! I have had to go to the Word and look – really look at it, look at Him…
I have found myself in Psalm 119. I can so relate to some of David’s prayers in this psalm. Several times he asks the Lord to revive me according to Your word. And then in verse 50 he says this is my comfort in my affliction, that Your word has revived me. That’s so cool to me and so very true as well! His word is alive! And it (He) is alive in me!
In verse 107 David says I am exceedingly afflicted; revive me according to Your word. It’s not that I rejoice that someone else faced tribulation but it does help to know that David (the man after God’s own heart) went through stuff too!
So today as I set my heart to spend more time absorbing and meditating on His word, I find relief to know that I have one more day down. We are 24 hours closer to the things He has promised!