Well it certainly helps me out a lot when Chris sleeps all night! I think I actually got to sleep five hours. That’s part of the struggle is not getting enough rest. It causes all sorts of tension in the body and emotions. Sleep is so important, although I always felt like it’s such a waste of time. I mean, why did God make our bodies need to rest almost a third of out time? that’s one third of our lives that are “wasted” in bed. That just seems like an awful lot to me! But for today, I am thankful that I got a little lump of sleep all together!
Sometimes I have such a difficult time balancing everything out. I need to work online to generate some cash flow; but I also have so much I feel I need to do as far as ministry is concerned. I am working on so many projects, and the funny thing is that even though I can’t get to all I have to do already I still have more ideas of things that could be done! I guess my mind hasn’t found the “off” switch yet!
Balancing that all out can be a great struggle for me. I really desire to write the study guides and articles, but need to write on line for my “job” so to speak. I’m finding that as I put the things first that He has given me to do, the other pretty well falls into place. But there are times when those little articles people read come through great difficulty.
Usually, when Chris has had a rough day it is hard for me to sit and write about faith! lol! I wonder why? It takes a large amount of energy sometimes to shift my brain back over. It’s a constant struggle sometimes to stay focused on Him and the Word in the midst of the trial.
But somehow in the middle of all the mess there is a closeness with Him that I am sensing. I can’t really explain it, but it’s like I know sometimes He is right here. Oh the next minute I may be fussing because I got all tangled up in Chris’ chair, or couldn’t get him to eat or whatever! But then when I settle back down, He is still right here. Under all the turmoil there is still peace! The struggle is to try to stay in that peace.
That’s my motto for today – stay in His peace. That sounds so spiritual and so great doesn’t it? But it is actually a very difficult task to accomplish. But that is still my goal for today – stay in peace while I feel in pieces! I think we can do this!